My last post of 2017? Random diary and random bullshit

Hey it's Ryo back in the blog!
It's been a month or 2 months since my last post.
First of all I'm very busy because a lot of things in real life need to prepare and done.
Secondly to be honest I'm just kinda lazy to post stuff....

Let's see lately if is about my love story well...
A lot of shit happened past few weeks, something happened and I kinda decided to give up.
And in the end go for the other girl, but still nothing good happened.
Cause in the end every girl I had a crush on already have someone in their mind,
even though is impossible for them but the same goes for me as well.
Kinda got into friend zone with this girl cause she said let just stay as best friend,
and since that I try to not think too much bout this.
I just try my best to treat her as a friend. it's not easy but I just try with all my might.
I know I'm just trying to comfort myself by saying this but no one knows what's gonna happen in the future so just let the time flow natural I suppose.

This year December is kinda different from the past December,
I met a lot of new people and friends, in the end there's two people birthday this month which I'm close with them,
So actually bought two gift for two of them and ordered custom cake from Sam's girlfriend.
It actually cost me a lot to be honest... Both cake and gifts.
Went for karaoke for the first girl which is the one that I had a crush on right now,
It's her 21st birthday so I try to make it very special for her.
Since she like nugget a lot and I mean A LOT, I tried to make a custom cake of actual nugget for her.
From what I saw she like it a lot for both the nugget cake, anime character custom cake with Trafalgar from One Piece since she love this character and a Trafalgar figure for her gift.
For the second girl which I had a crush on previously,
I only know she love cute stuff so a Totoro custom cake and a plushie for her gift. But we went to a buffet style Shabu Shabu so yeah it still quite costly in the end.
I guess this is my first time paying out this much for my entire life.

Then there's Christmas celebration for the office, need to buy a gift which cost more than RM50 for the gift exchange event.
I got myself a plushie while I gave away Atomy's face cleanser...
A fair trade in a sense? Even though I'm not really satisfy but at least the plushie is cute.

What really change about me is that I'm starting to play piano again,
even though I can't tell how long it last this time.
But the main reason for me to start piano again is just to play a Happy Birthday song in a very romantic style for her,
and that is also the time I got friend zoned by her...
But in the end I'm still playing now cause I know I really like the sound of piano.
It always heal and cheers me up whenever I'm down.

Then lately I've been skipping anime...
By skipping I mean I'm really skipping, I don't feel like watching any anime except for some which I really want to follow.
Then I rather use the time to play piano or go for movie, of course, by movie she's around as well.
Just one thing it kinda hurt me is that she's afraid of me,
she doesn't want to sit beside me in the cinema cause... she's afraid of me?
She just said I treat her too good and this cause her to afraid of me...

Then just today a whole lot of work drop to every trainer in my team.
Need to do extra work nowadays compare to last time...
Thanks to the new trainer supervisor from HQ, everyone dislike you man, congratulation!!
All these things really took away my time for anime...
So the next season I'll really filter out those that I don't really want to watch.

So I guess that's all for now,
it's already 1.11 AM right now and I have no idea what I want to write anymore.
I'll stop here for now and until the next time I update.
Even though I really have no idea when will be the next update...
But most probably it's next year we meet cause is 9 days to 2018 and 4 days to my trip to Japan!!
YEAH!!!!
So that's all for now...


Well then, stay tune people!!


I hope that the world will be always in peace..

My 25th birthday celebration!

Hey it's Ryo here back in the blog.
Yeah it's past my birthday about 10 minutes ago and I do say I will be back by today or yesterday.
So I had a quite wonderful birthday experience this year.
Not to mention is also because the girl I like is celebrating for me,
of course along with other.
But I'm still glad she inside the group.

Let's see....
Okay so yesterday we had me, Tesco crew Sajalie, Ice, Shirley and an ex colleague Rizki with my friend Jeremy and a really special guest Kayla.
I mean SPECIAL GUEST cause it's a year since we last contact.
But to be honest she change quite a lot compare to last time, the way she talk and her topic and such.
Anyhow it's okay cause we can still chat and ask about our life and stuff.
So we went to D' Fortune at Menjarala Kepong.
I'm not eating cause first I'm still in my diet and second, I ate some before I went out.
Everyone was eating either chicken chop, pasta and some drank some beer.
After about 11.30 the cake comes out, and I never expect they bring cake as well tbh.
I'm really happy and grateful from the bottom of my heart.
So I'm gonna say thanks again here even though none of you will actually read my shit.
But I felt bad as well in the same time cause I neglected all of the Tesco crew.
I mean yeah I never seen Kayla for a year at least so we have quite a lot of thing to talk bout,
but neglecting them and what worst the girl I like, I felt super bad...
Even though in the end she laugh a lot and I'm really glad for that...

Nothing happen today even though is exactly 16 but I had enough fun yesterday so who cares right?
I mean there're people who willing to celebrate for you is more than enough.
And here I really wanna say thanks to Sajalie again as well.
Cause he create a chance for me to go out with her,
even though I just bring her to Aeon Rawang to get some gift for her friend,
and what worst is during working hour...
but I believe this is a chance for me to raise her affection towards me.
I don't know how well or bad it'll turn out as but wish me luck guys!
I'll try not to waste this opportunity!
And right now both Tesco crew know that I like her so yeah,
I can only say I'll try my best and well... let God do His thing as well...
No matter what the outcome is, I just have to accept it and hope even she reject me in the future,
we can still be friends.

Okay I guess I just have to stop here...
I try to come back by Saturday to post about the outcome of the outing with her.
I really hope nothing bad will happen that day...
or I should say this plan can still be carry out cause it's her off day tomorrow,
she can just like ask her mum or dad to bring her out anytime if she wanted to..


Well then, stay tune people!!


I hope that the world will be always in peace..

11.11 IS A POCKY DAY for me!!

Hey sup Ryo is back again,
It's 11.11 today in Chinese culture they say is 光棍节 (Guang Gun Jie)
It's a day for those who are single because 1111 but to me,
is ポッキーの日 which mean Pocky Day!
Is a Japan culture to celebrate Pocky Day, and I'm following this culture instead of Single Day.

Yeah and is also a big day for OPPO because it's a launching day for F5.
So instead of my usual Saturday routine I went to the shop with the most pre order to help them.
Even though I only help with taking photo and most of the time stand there like a stone..
And to be honest I did nothing other than taking photo cause after the morning session,
taking photo of those who pre order past few days come to collect their phone today,
the crowd, a photo of SR with customer and etc..
Then after that went for lunch, tea time, chit chat and dinner...
Oh I even got myself a birthday gift which is Project Diva X HD for PS4!
I know I don't have much time to play as well but who cares..
Also got a gift from my cousin Simon a Rolex watch, he said he got it from some black market..
and I actually have no idea whether this watch is original or fake but who cares right?
As long as is a watch and is usable that's all I care.

And for my story goes on, I think I again approach too tight.
Well text her a few time and got ignored, even though is normal but it still hurt sometimes..
I mean hey, I'm a human as well and who likes the feeling of gotten ignore right?
I really wanted to ask some advice from other girl but no one I can really ask..
She ignore my text and won't even like whatever I post on social media,
but when I meet her she'll talk to me like as usual..
Yeah I believe most of the people will tell me either she feel bad if she ignore me when I meet her,
or she feel awkward if she ignore me something like that.
Is obviously that she doesn't dislike me as a person but she also couldn't like me as a guy.
She just treat me as a friend.... FRIENDZONED!!!
Sigh.... yeah my love story always ended up like this...
Even though I haven't confess or anything but this is most likely the ending for this chapter..
Same pattern as usual....

Oh well, let's stop there.
Another 5 days to my big day, kinda expecting but not really expecting at the same time.
Most of all what I expect the most is on Wednesday,
where the Tesco crew say they'll celebrate for me,
but is always like when I'm expecting too much things in the end the plan will sink..
So which is why I don't really dare to expect much as well this time,
cause the more I expect the more I'll be sad IF the plan couldn't go well..
So yeah, Happy Advance Birthday to myself first and I'll come back either on Wednesday or Thursday!!


Well then, stay tune people!!


I hope that the world will be always in peace..

Random diary of 5th Nov

Hey people sup it's Ryo in the house again
This time I'm back for quite fast, 5 days?
While I'm saying most probably the next time I'll be back with some heartbreaking news,
But no, not yet, I actually hope it won't... But no one can tell what the future will hold right?

Yeah F5 pre-order has start and these few days is literally shit for me...
A ton of shit need to deal EVERY SINGLE FxCKING NIGHT!!
I'm not complaining really, just that need to type it with word to release a bit of stress..
While I only need to key 2x information of the customer who pre-order,
I'm super pity of my colleague who need to key 17x information... I mean...
2x took me like 15 minutes? I really can't imagine how much time need to take to key 17x...
At least still 5 more days to go of such days... And I'm having headache for 2 days and even now...
And it's a whole new Monday tomorrow after skipped meeting for almost 1 month...
I just hope tomorrow will be a good day.

While for my story of a little love story of mine,
I'm still trying my best, sometime she reply but still ignore my text most of the time.
I don't know really, what's my chance of success now? 20%? 30%? or 10%?
If is from text she's quite cold but if I see her she doesn't seems that cold to me, I guess?
I guess is just all my imagination huh.

Anyway 10 more days to my big day!
Those girl included my crush said they wanted to celebrate for me and ask what I want to eat?
Or karaoke they said, but I don't know.
I just let them and time to decide cause what I want now might won't be the same by that time..
But I'm really happy that they have this intention.
Well... It's time for me to off again.
I hope the next time I'm here I won't be sad or other negative emotion.


Well then, stay tune people!!


I hope that the world will be always in peace..

Oppo F5 mobilization, I expose myself and 16 days to my birthday!!

It's exactly 10 days since my last post so what's up people?
Is Ryo is the house again here writing his good o days.
A lot of things and event happened these past few days.

First of all, is OPPO F5 Mobilization event yesterday! Had a great time yesterday, really had fun yesterday, but what I didn't expect is I actually fell sick yesterday and not even fully recovered yet now.. Felt so cold right now while I'm writing this post. But still even though is quite busy but I still had a lot of nice time yesterday night, drank quite a lot and now coughing non stop as if I almost cough out blood... One of the SE is resigning so almost as if the event is held for him to give him a farewell party. And what surprise me is I actually confess who I like to my friend inside the car after the event when driving back to Rawang and another friend through WeChat.. I'm so drunk yesterday..

Even though the girl, Ice didn't tell her anything but this topic suddenly pop out to them today, cause Ice told me that she told her that I might be chasing after her... Everything I did is too obvious.. And which is why she choose to ignore my text most of the time and sometime when I offer to buy some food to them she rejected my offer... So yeah.., Obviously she doesn't want to accept my good intention.. Cause as I said in the last post she like another guy which is the same team as me, a trainer.. Even though she doesn't has chance with the guy and neither do I have a chance with her... Even though I didn't confess anything but it turn out to be very awkward when I visit them this evening.. I actually don't know what to say to her and things turn out to be super awkward when Ice ask me why I didn't talk to her when I visit them..

But I actually felt a bit relieve and happy when Ice text me about when she know I'm chasing after her, cause in the text Ice actually feel sad for me when she say "which is why she doesn't reply to my text" and "which is why she doesn't want me to buy food for her" cause for these two phrase she put a sad and cry emoji to it. And which is why I felt happy that someone actually felt sad for my sake.

Yeah after 25 years of being single and still going on, and here I hope that I can get someone I like and experience some love live but well, I guess my time really hasn't come at all yet.. Even though I haven't confess my feeling yet but this feeling of mine will most probably sink down to the bottom of the sea again.. I should put some distance from her for the time being.. And if things got settle down I might try to confess to her and well... Get reject and got myself hurt again..

And it's November which mean my birthday is coming again! Yeah! But I'm kinda too old for this to be honest.. Last year I chose to hide my birthday in my Facebook for some childish reason to see who actually remember my birthday, but it turned out to be just my family member and some very close friend of mine..I'm still happy that time, and I'm really thankful to them.. This year I'll continue to hide and see how many wished I could get when the day come... But of course I hope I could get a good wish from the one I like now haha.. Childish me...

Okay then, I don't know when I'll be posting again but two more days I'll be visiting her again so I just hope things won't get awkward again like today.. Or I won't be able to see her ever again..


Well then, stay tune people!!


I hope that the world will be always in peace..

Random diary, fall for someone and waiting to get reject again!

Hey guys is Ryo here back after absent for 2 weeks.
I'd been really busy for the past two weeks because of my work.
Everyday leave office at 10 PM which mean I stayed for more than 12 hour in the office for the past two weeks.
Why? Because a new hot model for OPPO will be release soon and we need to train the SR for them to get prepare.
Even though I'm not the one who gave training but it's still very tiring. Though I'm more pity those who stand in front and give speech because this time only 3 trainers are allow to give training to SR. A lot of us don't understand why but it's the order from above so yeah, can't really do anything. This time our role for those who can't train is just to support.
And since it's hot model is launching and other than those usual Google Form test, we also have to memorize some sales speech given by the above. Everyone HAVE to memorize which is super suck. Of course I'd already memorize, but what really suck is that I have to listen to the same thing over and over again everyday since this Monday. Because only we trainer are only allow to give them marking. Really my mind till now is full of those speech and I have to repeat these cycle for another months...
And what sucks today is after I came back to Rawang about 11 PM just now taking back 3 SR. 1 came by motorcycle and parked at Rawang Walk so I only need to drop him there. Other 2 from Bukit Beruntung sent by their family this morning need me to send them back to Bukit Beruntung...
Damn I'm soooo bored after I know that I need to take them back... Life sucks...

These past two weeks for my off day as usual nothing really special as well. I can't really remember what I did last Wednesday... Oh ya! Sent my mum to send her goods to her friends and spent my evening at Tesco Rawang with SR and the same goes for this week went to find Liang Yi for lunch then also spent my evening at Tesco Rawang with SR buying them dinner.
Why am I so good? I don't really know. Since two weeks ago I actually went to drinks with them after they finish their work which is after 10 PM, I spent quite a lot of time with them lately.
One of the reason is well, trying to hit on a SR AGAIN who work there and of course as usual my chance of success is below 20%. First of all AS USUAL, she has someone in her heart AGAIN THIS PATTERN and this time she's only 17. WOW!  Even though the chance for them to be together is not high this time but nevertheless I'm still at disadvantage.
Yeah I know I'm not that good looking while she like good looking guy. But still I enjoy my time spending with them even without her. I can say they are those SR with I'm in really good term with.
Of course I hope one day if I really confess to her and got rejected, we can still stay as good as now.
But I tell myself now! I have to at least slim myself down cause I know I'm fat goddammit!
I'll try to give myself some time this time, not to rush shit.

Absent for two weeks and that's all I wanted to write. And even though no one is reading anyway...
Kinda sad and lonely when I say it myself....
Anyway I'm off for now, hope I could come back some good news for myself but I can most likely predict that the next time I come back I'll be very down and emo while I write some new post.. Sigh...


Stay tune!!


それじゃ～～


また後ぜ～～


世界を平和でありますようにぜ～～

I'm not being myself lately....

Hey it's Ryo back for some more stuff to write.

Freaking took sick leave for today cause freaking sprain my neck again.
Hmm... Really what is the cause for this pain of mine I have no idea at all, I don't think is because of my sleep posture is wrong... Welp.. Can't really do anything about this for now.

Lately I've been trying to tackle some girl at my work place, which is "cough cough", a SR. A taboo that I mustn't touch I know, but hmm... I don't know that I actually have feeling for this girl or not. First thing is that she's just 18 this year, while I'm 25. "WOW!!" is what you guys have in your mind right? Yeah cause I'm the same to be honest. But yeah, she finally ignore me today so yeah I guess... It's kinda hurt to be ignored but I guess she figured out that I'm trying to hit on her so she avoid me this phone, I hope it won't be awkward when I see her next time cause no matter how is it, she's my SR. I have to face her even though she's avoiding me., hope things won't get too awkward...

As for my daily life, went for a movie that I actually expected when I first saw it's trailer. 'The Foreigner' by Jackie Chan. I was really expecting a lot from this movie, buuutttt it turned out not that good in the end. I fell asleep twice throughout the whole movie. It's not that bad but just not what I expected at first.

Went to find my grandparents for lunch on my off day, it's mid-autumn festival, and it's past month when I met them. No one knows how long can we see them so really, appreciate it while we still could for now. After that went to mum's friend's house for BBQ session at night, I had a really fun time there, looking at those adult making fun of each other even though they all already had children. Sometime I really think that will I have such chance in another 10-20 years from now? Can still mess with my friend I have now even though everyone have their own family. I'm being to sentimental again.

Really lately I'm just not being myself, keep on taking picture then post to social media, what am I even doing? I'm not that kind of person am I? I used to keep thing to myself, being an anonymous is me right? Why bother posting about shit to social media and trying to attract attention? What am I now an attention seeker? Too many question mark in my head now... What am I even doing.... Sigh, I should refrain myself for being such idiot. I always say that these kinda people are stupid, I can post stuff from time to time but hey get myself a head. BE MYSELF!! Don't go around doing things that not like me anymore!! Yeah I believe that is what I should be doing!!

Alright enough ranting. I should stop here. I should really totally grow up.
I hope that next time I'm back here I know what am I doing. Well then...


Stay tune!!


それじゃ～～


また後ぜ～～


世界を平和でありますようにぜ～～