My 25th birthday celebration!

Hey it's Ryo here back in the blog.
Yeah it's past my birthday about 10 minutes ago and I do say I will be back by today or yesterday.
So I had a quite wonderful birthday experience this year.
Not to mention is also because the girl I like is celebrating for me,
of course along with other.
But I'm still glad she inside the group.

Let's see....
Okay so yesterday we had me, Tesco crew Sajalie, Ice, Shirley and an ex colleague Rizki with my friend Jeremy and a really special guest Kayla.
I mean SPECIAL GUEST cause it's a year since we last contact.
But to be honest she change quite a lot compare to last time, the way she talk and her topic and such.
Anyhow it's okay cause we can still chat and ask about our life and stuff.
So we went to D' Fortune at Menjarala Kepong.
I'm not eating cause first I'm still in my diet and second, I ate some before I went out.
Everyone was eating either chicken chop, pasta and some drank some beer.
After about 11.30 the cake comes out, and I never expect they bring cake as well tbh.
I'm really happy and grateful from the bottom of my heart.
So I'm gonna say thanks again here even though none of you will actually read my shit.
But I felt bad as well in the same time cause I neglected all of the Tesco crew.
I mean yeah I never seen Kayla for a year at least so we have quite a lot of thing to talk bout,
but neglecting them and what worst the girl I like, I felt super bad...
Even though in the end she laugh a lot and I'm really glad for that...

Nothing happen today even though is exactly 16 but I had enough fun yesterday so who cares right?
I mean there're people who willing to celebrate for you is more than enough.
And here I really wanna say thanks to Sajalie again as well.
Cause he create a chance for me to go out with her,
even though I just bring her to Aeon Rawang to get some gift for her friend,
and what worst is during working hour...
but I believe this is a chance for me to raise her affection towards me.
I don't know how well or bad it'll turn out as but wish me luck guys!
I'll try not to waste this opportunity!
And right now both Tesco crew know that I like her so yeah,
I can only say I'll try my best and well... let God do His thing as well...
No matter what the outcome is, I just have to accept it and hope even she reject me in the future,
we can still be friends.

Okay I guess I just have to stop here...
I try to come back by Saturday to post about the outcome of the outing with her.
I really hope nothing bad will happen that day...
or I should say this plan can still be carry out cause it's her off day tomorrow,
she can just like ask her mum or dad to bring her out anytime if she wanted to..


Well then, stay tune people!!


I hope that the world will be always in peace..

11.11 IS A POCKY DAY for me!!

Hey sup Ryo is back again,
It's 11.11 today in Chinese culture they say is 光棍节 (Guang Gun Jie)
It's a day for those who are single because 1111 but to me,
is ポッキーの日 which mean Pocky Day!
Is a Japan culture to celebrate Pocky Day, and I'm following this culture instead of Single Day.

Yeah and is also a big day for OPPO because it's a launching day for F5.
So instead of my usual Saturday routine I went to the shop with the most pre order to help them.
Even though I only help with taking photo and most of the time stand there like a stone..
And to be honest I did nothing other than taking photo cause after the morning session,
taking photo of those who pre order past few days come to collect their phone today,
the crowd, a photo of SR with customer and etc..
Then after that went for lunch, tea time, chit chat and dinner...
Oh I even got myself a birthday gift which is Project Diva X HD for PS4!
I know I don't have much time to play as well but who cares..
Also got a gift from my cousin Simon a Rolex watch, he said he got it from some black market..
and I actually have no idea whether this watch is original or fake but who cares right?
As long as is a watch and is usable that's all I care.

And for my story goes on, I think I again approach too tight.
Well text her a few time and got ignored, even though is normal but it still hurt sometimes..
I mean hey, I'm a human as well and who likes the feeling of gotten ignore right?
I really wanted to ask some advice from other girl but no one I can really ask..
She ignore my text and won't even like whatever I post on social media,
but when I meet her she'll talk to me like as usual..
Yeah I believe most of the people will tell me either she feel bad if she ignore me when I meet her,
or she feel awkward if she ignore me something like that.
Is obviously that she doesn't dislike me as a person but she also couldn't like me as a guy.
She just treat me as a friend.... FRIENDZONED!!!
Sigh.... yeah my love story always ended up like this...
Even though I haven't confess or anything but this is most likely the ending for this chapter..
Same pattern as usual....

Oh well, let's stop there.
Another 5 days to my big day, kinda expecting but not really expecting at the same time.
Most of all what I expect the most is on Wednesday,
where the Tesco crew say they'll celebrate for me,
but is always like when I'm expecting too much things in the end the plan will sink..
So which is why I don't really dare to expect much as well this time,
cause the more I expect the more I'll be sad IF the plan couldn't go well..
So yeah, Happy Advance Birthday to myself first and I'll come back either on Wednesday or Thursday!!


Well then, stay tune people!!


I hope that the world will be always in peace..

Random diary of 5th Nov

Hey people sup it's Ryo in the house again
This time I'm back for quite fast, 5 days?
While I'm saying most probably the next time I'll be back with some heartbreaking news,
But no, not yet, I actually hope it won't... But no one can tell what the future will hold right?

Yeah F5 pre-order has start and these few days is literally shit for me...
A ton of shit need to deal EVERY SINGLE FxCKING NIGHT!!
I'm not complaining really, just that need to type it with word to release a bit of stress..
While I only need to key 2x information of the customer who pre-order,
I'm super pity of my colleague who need to key 17x information... I mean...
2x took me like 15 minutes? I really can't imagine how much time need to take to key 17x...
At least still 5 more days to go of such days... And I'm having headache for 2 days and even now...
And it's a whole new Monday tomorrow after skipped meeting for almost 1 month...
I just hope tomorrow will be a good day.

While for my story of a little love story of mine,
I'm still trying my best, sometime she reply but still ignore my text most of the time.
I don't know really, what's my chance of success now? 20%? 30%? or 10%?
If is from text she's quite cold but if I see her she doesn't seems that cold to me, I guess?
I guess is just all my imagination huh.

Anyway 10 more days to my big day!
Those girl included my crush said they wanted to celebrate for me and ask what I want to eat?
Or karaoke they said, but I don't know.
I just let them and time to decide cause what I want now might won't be the same by that time..
But I'm really happy that they have this intention.
Well... It's time for me to off again.
I hope the next time I'm here I won't be sad or other negative emotion.


Well then, stay tune people!!


I hope that the world will be always in peace..

Oppo F5 mobilization, I expose myself and 16 days to my birthday!!

It's exactly 10 days since my last post so what's up people?
Is Ryo is the house again here writing his good o days.
A lot of things and event happened these past few days.

First of all, is OPPO F5 Mobilization event yesterday! Had a great time yesterday, really had fun yesterday, but what I didn't expect is I actually fell sick yesterday and not even fully recovered yet now.. Felt so cold right now while I'm writing this post. But still even though is quite busy but I still had a lot of nice time yesterday night, drank quite a lot and now coughing non stop as if I almost cough out blood... One of the SE is resigning so almost as if the event is held for him to give him a farewell party. And what surprise me is I actually confess who I like to my friend inside the car after the event when driving back to Rawang and another friend through WeChat.. I'm so drunk yesterday..

Even though the girl, Ice didn't tell her anything but this topic suddenly pop out to them today, cause Ice told me that she told her that I might be chasing after her... Everything I did is too obvious.. And which is why she choose to ignore my text most of the time and sometime when I offer to buy some food to them she rejected my offer... So yeah.., Obviously she doesn't want to accept my good intention.. Cause as I said in the last post she like another guy which is the same team as me, a trainer.. Even though she doesn't has chance with the guy and neither do I have a chance with her... Even though I didn't confess anything but it turn out to be very awkward when I visit them this evening.. I actually don't know what to say to her and things turn out to be super awkward when Ice ask me why I didn't talk to her when I visit them..

But I actually felt a bit relieve and happy when Ice text me about when she know I'm chasing after her, cause in the text Ice actually feel sad for me when she say "which is why she doesn't reply to my text" and "which is why she doesn't want me to buy food for her" cause for these two phrase she put a sad and cry emoji to it. And which is why I felt happy that someone actually felt sad for my sake.

Yeah after 25 years of being single and still going on, and here I hope that I can get someone I like and experience some love live but well, I guess my time really hasn't come at all yet.. Even though I haven't confess my feeling yet but this feeling of mine will most probably sink down to the bottom of the sea again.. I should put some distance from her for the time being.. And if things got settle down I might try to confess to her and well... Get reject and got myself hurt again..

And it's November which mean my birthday is coming again! Yeah! But I'm kinda too old for this to be honest.. Last year I chose to hide my birthday in my Facebook for some childish reason to see who actually remember my birthday, but it turned out to be just my family member and some very close friend of mine..I'm still happy that time, and I'm really thankful to them.. This year I'll continue to hide and see how many wished I could get when the day come... But of course I hope I could get a good wish from the one I like now haha.. Childish me...

Okay then, I don't know when I'll be posting again but two more days I'll be visiting her again so I just hope things won't get awkward again like today.. Or I won't be able to see her ever again..


Well then, stay tune people!!


I hope that the world will be always in peace..