It's time... To be evil...

It's been a while~
Nothing specific these days~
My work seems very very relaxing this week cause no stock coming last week~
Hooray for that!! \(^_^)/
My life?
Same as always~
It's always so suck~

On Christmas I felt like wanna ask you whether you like ma gift or not~
At first I don't wanna ask..
Cause I afraid that you'll ignore my message as usual..
But in the end..
I asked..
Cause I really wanna know..
You did reply me~
I'm so happy when I saw your name~
You replied "thanks~ I like it~"
Sigh...
Though this answer did not replied my expectation..
But still..
At least you replied me..
I'm happy but sad in other way..
Cause...
It's like that you don't wanna hurt me so you just simply said you like it though you DON'T like it actually..
I can't figure out what is your actual answer~
But sometime..
It's better for us to NOT know the truth..
Maybe it'll hurt us...

On that day I went to Kepong Jusco AGAIN with my two pals~
Raymond (the one who stay over at my place on eve) and Sam (same kind as me in some other way)
Sam had went there first with his parent~
So Ray fetch me there~
Before that~
We went to Selayang Mall first~
To find one of ma old friend~
It's a girl~
I get the information from ma friend that I drank with him at Selayang on the eve night~
She work at one of those gift shop in the mall~
So the detail bout her is short, long hair and face with pimple~
There are two gift shop in the mall~
I went to the first shop~
An excuse from me to find something but actually wanna meet that girl~
Sadly~
She's not there~
So went to another shop~
Finally~
I saw her!
Her appearance hasn't change much ya~
I wanted to talk to her but I'm afraid..
So we went off without talking to her~
After that I went to the newly opened ChaTime to have some drink~
And because of Ray wanna get something at the girl shop~
I take this as excuse to go there again~
After he bought his things~
I finally get the courage to ask her~
The conversation goes like this~
"Are you Pxx Yxx"
"Ya"
Are you lil sis of XXX"
"Ya"
"Do you remember me?"
"No"
"Hmm... Never mind then.. Just asking"
GOD FUCKING SHIT!!!
The most embarrassing moment in ma life!
She must be thinking what am I and who the hell am I!!!
This strange guy.... =x=
ARGH!!!!
So we went off with those scene...
Damn!
We reach Kepong and watched movie with my pals and Sam's family~
And on that night~
Sam and Ray stayed over at ma place~
And this is how I end ma WORST Christmas ever in ma whole life!!!!
Sigh...
Can someone bring me alcohol right now?

The past two day?
Nothing specific event happen..
These days I'm quite addicted to Vocaloid singer Kagamine Twins's Story of Evil songs~
I always listen to it~ >_<
And I became quite evil because of it~ xD
Yesterday I experience something unusual ya~
I'm alone at home~
But I felt like someone keep on staring at me ya~
So scary.. >_<
Actually right now I still experiencing it..
Scary!!!!
Shivering too right now....

And these days I still keep on thinking bout you..
How are you now?
How's your life?
Are you happy with your life now?
Without me?
If we still in good condition I knew your answer will be "no"..
But now..
I believe your answer will be "ya"...
If things keep on like this..
I will be taking cigarette..
Those who reading this post..
Don't get shocked if next time you guys see me smoking..
Cause I'll be taking this method of shorten-your-life-spam to forget you..
And who knows maybe I'll be very evil..
Cause when I'm kind no one appreciate it..
Everyone take me as some bad ass!
So why do I have to give a shit bout it?
I'd learn some art of evil..
To survive in this cruel world of course...
So don't make me hate people..
The people I hate..
You'll know what'll happen to you in the future..
I swear that those who I hate won't have any happy life anymore!

My worst X'mas Eve ever...

Merry Christmas lads!
Is 1.43 A.M. when I'm writing this~
And I'm a little drunk too~
Cause I just drink beer~~
So what happened today?
Nothing specific anyway~
Just another sad and happy day~
Morning I have to work as usual~
And reached home at around 5~
Then went to my pal house Heng~
Prepared the present that's gonna give out later on for Irene and Karen~
Around 8 something we set out from his place~

At Irene house I gave her her gift~
Don't know whether she like it or not~
But it really took me some time to prepared that gift~
Though the art is suck~
But I really put effort in it~
Irene kinda sad cause she can't go to the BBQ~
So I gave her her gift and took the gift from her that she wanna give it to his boy, Sean and Karen~
After that we went to 7-11 to buy things for my pal's girl~
Some Meiji biscuit~
But some Cadbury chocolate he can't find at there~
So we were planning to go to Parkson to find it~
I saw something very interest thing too~
Yogi~
Kinda like Pocky~
Made from Tong Garden~
It's kinda different from the usual one I always eat~
But the chocolate cream is very sweet~
I like ONLY the chocolate~
The biscuit are so not good~ > <
Then we went to a stationary shop to buy box to fill in his gift that's gonna give out to his girl~
After that we went to Parkson~
He bought what he wanna bought and I bought some ferrero rocher for Aunt Angie~
Cause I somehow~ Promise her that I will give her some chocolate last time~
And I always forget~
So am gonna give it to her on today Christmas~ :D
After everything we went to my pal's girl's place first~
I waited for him in his car for bout 10 min~
Then he come out crazily~
He's in his happy mood ya~

Then we went to Aunt Angie's place~
To give out the gift I wanna give to Karen~
And help Irene to give her gift too~
Sadly~
I still can't forget her~
When I saw her with her boy I really felt the pain in my heart..
I still can't stand the pain ya......
Is soooooo hurt...
I just pretend like nothing happen and gave out the gift and went off..
Just a thanks from her..
Ya....
What else can I expect?
"Wow! Thanks, I love it."?
No way she'll say that..
Anyway..
Just hope she'll like it...

After those sad event..
I tried to called some of my frenz who stayed at Selayang~
But they're not around~
Luckily there still one more~
So we went to find him and have some drink~
And ofcz~
Our dinner!
Or should I say supper cause is 9 something when we reached there~ XP
Me and my fren have some really nice chat bout my past..
Still...
I like my past..
Especially those time at Selayang..
Cause most of it is really happy memory..
Not like here..
Many sad memory...
And many problem too....
If time can fly back..
I really hope can make me stay at there..
I hope that I won't meet you at all..
I told many things to my pal~
Many..
I somehow feel good too after telling him many things..
Hope you have a nice Christmas Eve Karen...
I still..
Love you....

CF Day Two~ Success~

Day Two of CF~
Finally can get in man!
In the morning have some Dim Sum with some of my friends~
Then after breakfast is time to get real~
Took bus to KLCC~
Arrived around 12 something~
WOW!!
Luckily had bought tickets for today~
So me and my friends can get in~
Before went in the hall~
Outside the Convention Center~
I had some photo on some cosplayer~
DAMN!
So many cute cosplayer ya~ :3
Is paradise for me man!
Later on went in the hall~
There are sooo many people~
Is quite hard to move inside the hall too~
Though I didn't bought anything~
But Sam bought many things~
He spent quite some money in there~
What I get today?
8x something of photo of cosplayer~ :3
DAMN!!
Though my photo are not that nice~
But still~
First time~
Is my second time of going to CF~
But this time I get many pictures ya~
Am really really so excited~ :3
On the way back~
One of my friend Hon~
Was bullied by me~ xD
Not bully anyway~
Just making fun of him~
Bursting chrysanthemum~
I keep on talking bout that~
If you guys don't understand what's it mean~
It means~
Take away male first time~
Fuck his ass~
LOLX~~
Quiet bad ya me~
I laugh like shit in the train just now~
I think people beside keep on looking at me ya~
Anyway~
I really had a great great time today~
Am expecting for next year CF~
This time~
I wanna get 1xx photo~
If possible~
I wanna take photo with those cosplayer too~ >_<

CF day one~ FAIL~

Day one of CF = Comic Fiesta~
Guess what?
I went there after work..
Is around 4 something when I reach KLCC~
Ticket for today sold out..
Said by the reception....
DAMN!!!
But luckily I no need to Q for 2 hours like my friend does~
I bought for the tickets for tomorrow~
So now m expecting for tomorrow~
Hehe~
Hope that something good will happen tomorrow~
Cause these days really..
Everything happen to me is so not smooth..
When is the last time I really smile?
Really smile within my heart...
Every time I smile..
Is so fake..
After those incident...
Every smile of mine is fake...
2011...
Is the most fucking year to me..
Family, love and friends...
Everything is so suck...
Nothing really good happen....
Is my last year of age 1x..
Why have to give me so many unhappy event?
And December..
Last year of year 2011...
Can really say everything that happen is so unhappy....
Sad and unhappy event..
Heartbroken event...
Death...
Everything...
Sigh...
2012...
Hope that it's a good year after so many things happen this year..

Is time to move on~

I finally know what to do..
Don't cry for something not worth at all..
Thanks to Ann..
I know what should I do..
Forget bout her..
Pray for her..
What's important..
She's happy..
All I wanted for is her to be happy always..
Then I can be happy too..
Find another target..
Lock on~
Fire!!!
Is time to move on...
Don't always stay the same...
There's many girls out at the world..
What for wasting my time for an impossible love story..
The Chinese say 别为了个树而牺牲整个森林..
Means don't sacrifice the whole forest because of a tree..
This is not my love story..
I'm the main character but she's not..
She's just a girl who give me experience and make me more mature..
I really wanna thank her for teaching me many things..
Thanks Karen..
For teaching me so much thing..
May you always be happy.. :)

Tears always fall when I think bout you..

Today..
Went to Segambut to find my cousin..
At first I just wanna find them to waste some time then went to Selayang and find some other friend..
But suddenly plan change..
To Kepong Jusco..
I really had a great time at there..
I watched Sri Petaling Street show..
Played Dance Dance Revolution X standard mode..
Really tired while playing =x=
Then after the movie went to Kepong food court to have dinner..
Then after sending my cousin and aunt back..
When the time going back home..
From Segambut to Rawang..
Someone Like You by Adele played at radio..
I sang along with it..
Loudly and emotionly..
Guess what..
I cried again..
Damn..
Drive while singing and crying..
What a good experience I got here..
I really wish to have something that can make me forgot everything bout you..
So I won't have to cry anymore..
Right now..
Every time I wake up..
My first thought is that you have boyfriend..
Then my tear will automatically fall from my eyes..
Goddammit!
I really suffer from sadness these days..
When only will I stop crying for you..
Right now..
I'm crying too..
What a crybaby........

Your new boyfriend..

You finally have boyfriend..
This day have finally come..
Congrate..
I'm really sad..
Shedding my tears before writing this..
Cause the cruel thing had happened..
And we fought again..
Because of my rage..
I said things that can't turn back..
You were very mad just now..
And I'm mad too just now..
I just can't control my feeling..
I'm the worst one who always like this..
That's why no one will like me..
I know it very very well..
What you know..
I'm shocked just now..
You said last time you had thought of accepting me..
Why gave me this cruel truth while you already had boyfriend..
Damn!
Why..
I'm so confused right now..
I hope that you can forget what I said..
I didn't mean it..
Maybe I really mean it but it's just my rage..
If is not rage I won't said those..
Damn!
What can I do?
There's really no turning back now..
I had done a big mistake..
I had once hurt you again..
Sorry..
I know I'm a pathetic..
I'm such a jerk..
You know..
I just message your boyfriend just now..
I told him to love you more..
Protect you..
Love you till you forgot how I hurt you last time..
Really hope that he can love you more than me many many times..
I love you..
Please live a happy and blessed life..
With your new partner..
If possible..
Please be friend with me again..
I really don't wanna end it..