Just trying to let out my own pressure in my own way

Yo it's Ryo in the house again.
Man oh man somehow I just feel like typing words again so here I am.

Madoka finally release it's mobage! I'm super excited and furious cause I couldn't manage to draw Madoka for myself but it's fine cause I still can get it in the future but who knows suddenly my phone couldn't update anymore! It says my phone is not compatible for this game! Sigh.... My mood went from sky high to ground zero...

Nothing much to update actually but just recently work wise, I'm starting to get close with my own teammate which is good I believe. Who know when the time comes for me to leave I might actually feel heavy and sad. But still, a lot of shit happen. Even though I manage to get close with some of my colleague which I thought impossible in the past, I still have to put on some mask when interacting with other people. I don't know how long my heart can take this frankly speaking, I mean my heart is really tiring but I don't feel like saying out to other. Someone might read my blog but still I really don't feel like speaking out my heart content. I'm sorry for that, cause this is me, most of the time i rather keep it to myself.

One of my teammate which is quite close compare to other called me last two days and say he saw his ex is going to marry and he is very shocked and heartbroken. I'm like wow... I'm not in a very good position as well and suddenly such conversation come to me. I mean even now I still have feeling for her and I'm trying my best to forget bout this feeling. And somehow lately a lot of people from my company come to me and tell me things that they kept inside their heart which of course is some complaint or things they kept in heart. I can only say lately I'm been listening to a lot of such word and I'm getting quite emotion, sad emotion only. I know I'm a good listener but still, I'm not a superhuman so if I take too much such word I think one day I might broke down cause myself is facing quite some problem as well. I'm happy that someone wanted to come to me and tell me their problem, but I can't handle too much at such short time man.

One thing for sure this is not suicide note or anything bad. I just write it out cause I don't want to let other knows, is a type of letting my stress out I believe. For those who read and worry bout me, thank you and don't worry, I'm still strong and alive and I have Jesus with me so I won't do anything stupid really.

Well, done letting my stress out and I felt relieve a bit.
Till the next time and I hope it'll become some normal dairy without such emotional event.


Stay tune!!


それじゃ～～


また後ぜ～～


世界を平和でありますようにぜ～～