I really never even expect that I'll come back to write shit again.
Why you ask? Well maybe is because I read someone's life story I guess...
And man oh man after reading my past post I felt stupid to be honest, and I know after some time when I read this post I feel the same as now too..
But whatever man...
It's really been five years since I stop blogging, or just to write a life story of mine.
Just a lot of shit happened in this past five year, can't say my life is as bad as the person blog that I read just now, but.... maybe almost the same? I mean my own dad have affair outside, have a bunch of debt need to clear, even after he clear most of his big debt he still going for gambling. I guess luckily he didn't borrow from loan shark huh. Even though he keep on borrow from me or my sis... Mum also have "best friend" of her own, even though she call the "best friend" darling? Oh well, life is harsh. Even though mine is not a very complete family but I know there are even worst outside, so I really felt blessed.
I don't think I have a lot of shit to write to cover up these past five years I mean, is just some daily plain life. What else had change bout me? Being a even addicted otaku. Hey! I own TWO dakis now! Isn't that enough to call me an otaku!? And two glass cabinet fulls of figures, no more collecting Gundam because it's too troublesome to build it, or lazy to be precise. I guess time really can change a people huh. Change my job after six years working in the same company. Is bored in that company, I have nothing else to learn anymore there. Thanks to my friend he pull me out from the comfort zone of mine and I'm here learning new stuff such as how to manage others and how to create fake data... But I know I won't stay here long because it really doesn't suit me, I mean how this job makes me skip my church for three months.
Speaking of going to church, I become a more faithful servant than the past me, because of one time when my pastor prayed for me, I know the Lord Jesus is a living God, he knew what's inside me, what's my need. That's why from that moment on I will try to go to church every Sunday, unless there are special event such as anime festival. (I'm sorry Jesus...)
Anime festival... Time really change me a lot, from last time how I always exciting to go for those event to not that expecting to go unless there're artist I wanted to see. I mean, is always the same there. I myself not a talkative guy so I can't really make friends there, unlike one of my friend Sam. He can make friends anywhere, even girlfriend now he has. I'm really happy for him, really! Just that... whenever we meet up nowadays whatever he said is "she, she, she..." to be honest it an become quite annoying if you keep on listen to the same thing... I'm sorry Sam for avoiding you nowadays, but I will find you again one day.
And making a new friend, Liang Yi which we are very close I guess, I mean we even bought ticket to Japan for this December! Yay! Japan! Comiket! Akiba! Everything is bout anime and of course my dream country to go! I really admire him, he has a lot of work and life experience even though he's only two years older than me. And he always gives me advice whenever I'm lost sometime. And a friend from Japan which is studying here in Malaysia now, Takaishi Ryutarou. Is all thanks to Sam I know these guys, so I'm kinda felt bad to for boycotting you nowadays. But i will find a solution for this, cause this can't last forever right....
Love story? 25 years of living couldn't even get a girlfriend my gosh. I don't know should I laugh or cry bout this. Sometime I still dream bout her, I'm sure I'd let her go, she even got married and gave birth twice, or thrice from what I heard from others. That's why I just don't understand why I still dream of her sometime. Then fell for Irene again but well.... got rejected again because he heart still have Julian which is her ex boyfriend, even make her mad when she's not a person who will get mad easily. Now fall for my colleague which have just left this company three days ago. I write this blog again is because I read her blog. But somehow her heart fills with another guy, which mean even I confess she will reject me as well I'm sure. Sigh.... how come my love life is always this miserable... Every time I fall for a girl which their heart fills with another guy. I know they are not meant for me, my time has not come yet, but really... when can I get a girlfriend for myself? But I think I will still confess to her one day, I'm ready to get hurt again but hey, at least I confess right? This is youth, is a life we must go through when we're still young! Heartbroken moment. Just that I don't know how much heartbroken moment I still have to experience....
Ahhhhh!!!! What am I even writing or thinking!!?? This post will eventually read by her I think because since she shared her blog to mine, as a fair and equal treatment I should share mine to her too right? Single life is good but sometime when you're single for too long you somehow will want to taste the life of being with the one you love. But still getting a girlfriend is not easy since my family will be facing problem from time to time. I don't know man I can only say I'l try to get that girl heart this time. If I fail I can only say she's not meant for me either...
Whoops, I write too much this time. Since is a post that cover for five years what do you expect? Friends got married and have their own family. Some friend got totally lost contact. Some friend which we used to always hang out together to seldom meet up. This is all life I must say, life that make us grow. And when we look back, is all memories we don't even care if is once sweet or bitter.
Time to stop writing shit I guess. I don't know when will be the next time I post shit again but whatever right. No one will see all this shit except myself and the current girl I like (If she wants to read it of course)
Good night! Ciao!
それじゃ～～
また後ぜ～～
世界を平和でありますようにぜ～～
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