Start a blog again!!

Hmm...
For some years I didn't blog le..
Don't know what to write lah..
Start from tomorrow the whole week I'll be very very busy..
Cause one of the worker balik kampung dah...
So i need to do his part too..
DAMN!!!
Don't know how to survive the whole week man..
Asshole!
Plus I'm sick right now..
Blur, headache, fever, cough...
Sigh......
Had cough for two weeks plus and still haven't recover from it..
Do I need to go for a doc then?
But I really don't wanna take those med...
Cause those med can't take too much..
Is bad for body...
These days...
Not smooth at all...
Girl that I like has boyfriend le...
Emo me coming to me again...
Think too much again...
Whats worst is...
After yesterday I realize I still like her...
I'm such a playboy...
I like two girl in a same time goddammit!
But...
I like the old one more...
Even till now I know myself that I still like her very much...
And for the one that already has boyfriend I has no more feeling for her...
But I know our relationship is not like last time d..
She has her own friend..
She found her own new life...
She's happy with them more than me..
Though those friends of her is not that good..
But what important is she's happy la..
I know myself well that I shouldn't be like that..
I really do know that..
But I can't control my feeling...
Goddammit!
Yesterday seeing her playing with friends of hers..
Card game...
The one who lose must draw by other at feet using pen...
Childish...
I don't understand..
If you like a person shouldn't you protect her but not to torture her..
One of a boy who's chasing her is like enjoying drawing her feet..
I'm soooooooooo mad bout it!!
You called that like her?
Chasing her?!
You should NOT drew her if you really like her!
I don't have the right to judge him I know..
But please....
You're just a boy who likes to play!!!!
FUCK YOU GODDAMMIT who said you like her!!!!
Don't see her from her outer part...
What's in her inner part...
Why she wanna hang out so much is cause she don't wanna stay at home...
I can't say myself know her well but I hang out with her for quite a time...
So I can sure of myself I know her quite well...
Just live a happy life to the girl I like right now...