2nd blog~ childish subject~

Another day has gone..
Firstly I really thought today will be a very busy day for me..
But somehow it become the most easiest Monday to me~
Hope that every Monday can stay like today~

9 more days to my big day~ ^w^
But not too much expectation to that day..
I know it'll be a boring and sad day for me on that day..
I'm well aware of that..

Something happen today..
Looks like my mouth finally cause some big fuss..
Right now one of my friend started to avoid me too..
But never mind..
Used to it...
I know I should really change my way of talking..
Especially my words..
Always hurt other people feeling..
I'll try to change..

Saw your picture taken with some idiot today..
When I saw it really it make me soooooooooooo mad!
Jealousy..
I'm jealous again..
And some other status with the one that chase you..
Again jealous...
Hmm...
Why the fucking hell should I be jealous?
After months I should have pull you out..
But why after meeting you again those goddamn feeling comes back?
I don't know which part of you attract me so much..
And me myself can't understand why I love you so much till I lost control of myself ALWAYS..
I'm well known that we are impossible..
I really should forget you..
But WHY can't I do it?
Goddammit!
These feel I can only keep it deep inside my heart..

Who will wish me and who will not wish me on my big day?
Am looking forward to that day for those who don't wish me~
LOL!!
Silly me~ :3