I'm not being myself lately....

Hey it's Ryo back for some more stuff to write.

Freaking took sick leave for today cause freaking sprain my neck again.
Hmm... Really what is the cause for this pain of mine I have no idea at all, I don't think is because of my sleep posture is wrong... Welp.. Can't really do anything about this for now.

Lately I've been trying to tackle some girl at my work place, which is "cough cough", a SR. A taboo that I mustn't touch I know, but hmm... I don't know that I actually have feeling for this girl or not. First thing is that she's just 18 this year, while I'm 25. "WOW!!" is what you guys have in your mind right? Yeah cause I'm the same to be honest. But yeah, she finally ignore me today so yeah I guess... It's kinda hurt to be ignored but I guess she figured out that I'm trying to hit on her so she avoid me this phone, I hope it won't be awkward when I see her next time cause no matter how is it, she's my SR. I have to face her even though she's avoiding me., hope things won't get too awkward...

As for my daily life, went for a movie that I actually expected when I first saw it's trailer. 'The Foreigner' by Jackie Chan. I was really expecting a lot from this movie, buuutttt it turned out not that good in the end. I fell asleep twice throughout the whole movie. It's not that bad but just not what I expected at first.

Went to find my grandparents for lunch on my off day, it's mid-autumn festival, and it's past month when I met them. No one knows how long can we see them so really, appreciate it while we still could for now. After that went to mum's friend's house for BBQ session at night, I had a really fun time there, looking at those adult making fun of each other even though they all already had children. Sometime I really think that will I have such chance in another 10-20 years from now? Can still mess with my friend I have now even though everyone have their own family. I'm being to sentimental again.

Really lately I'm just not being myself, keep on taking picture then post to social media, what am I even doing? I'm not that kind of person am I? I used to keep thing to myself, being an anonymous is me right? Why bother posting about shit to social media and trying to attract attention? What am I now an attention seeker? Too many question mark in my head now... What am I even doing.... Sigh, I should refrain myself for being such idiot. I always say that these kinda people are stupid, I can post stuff from time to time but hey get myself a head. BE MYSELF!! Don't go around doing things that not like me anymore!! Yeah I believe that is what I should be doing!!

Alright enough ranting. I should stop here. I should really totally grow up.
I hope that next time I'm back here I know what am I doing. Well then...


Stay tune!!


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